the voice within

young girl don't cry, i'll be right here when your world starts to fall

thanks karina

forget-me-not

記得小時候有一次要參加別人的婚禮

出發前媽媽帶了我去一間髮型屋

她說:"帶你黎扮靚"

之後便留下我離開了

獨自對著一個素未謀面的陌生人, 其實覺得很不安

但被貪靚所蒙蔽, 也乖乖的坐下

只看見他專注的把弄我的頭髮

把一隻隻的髮夾弄到我的頭上, 再把氣味奇怪的東西到處噴

我開始覺得不安

但看看鏡裡的自己, 便舒了一口氣

然後媽媽回來了

看見她手裡拿著一束花:"把這個當裝飾可以嗎?"

髮型師接過後便開始把它們放在我頭上

我問媽媽:"那是甚麼花？"

"這叫forget-me-not, 毋忘我"

"forget-me-not? 好奇怪的花名"

"它的意思, 是叫別人不要忘記她, 永遠也要記住她. 我們現在參加別人的婚禮, 戴這個正好"

我看著手裡拿著一束剩下來的forget-me-not, 我決定我要喜歡這種花

就像那天我決定要喜歡美少女戰士一樣

而我當天的那髮型, 因為它, 變得很美

最後一個承諾

那天他問我：“若我們分手了， 你最遺憾的是甚麼？”
想了良久，我想不出答案

曾經我隨口便能說出十多樣很想和他做的事情
但今天我絞盡腦汁也想不出
曾經他跟我說他要做完所有對我的承諾才能分手
結果他連這個承諾也沒有遵守

要變的時候，根本不需要任何理由

當天下午的餘溫猶在
髮線的香味還留在襯衣
回頭已人去樓空，不復再

所有的都只是藉口，說到底只有一個原因
已經不愛了
所以無論做甚麼都是錯
回頭看看，曾一起經歷的所有像從未發生過
而今天，你我已成陌路人


其實生活上有太多的事比愛你不愛你大
像回看中一，二的考試
當人開始長大，經歷得越多
過去的天昏地暗都變得雞毛蒜皮

也許等到某一天，當一切也放下
我們就在中國冰室再見

L.O.L.A.

yfew years back, i came across a brand in the cosmetic counter

Lola

i was attracted by their red and black packaging

seducing, mysterious, daring

then i saw their slogan - ''lust often love always''

since then it became my moral

as a typical girl searching for my perfect guy, i believed in it and try and do everything i could to remain the lust, as to catch the love

its not until my world teared apart

i finally realized its just not that simple

people not only make love with the ones they love

but also with people that came up to them, or people they admired, or even for pure hunger

that's life. whether you like it or not

there's no such thing as perfect

even if people swear that they won't, they are just lying

i mean, who won't?

ask yourself, deep down from your heart

i know you will, and you know why

so, for naive people that still believe in the cinderella story: it's better to expect that to happen first. if it didn't, congratulations. if it did, its not that shocking after all, right?

p.s. when i was trying to search "lola" in the internet, a song came up. performed by the kinks.

how i wish i can be Lola

diana - dreamer

i'm a dreamer, an extreme day dreamer.

i dream about everything,

everything that you can think of.

i dreamt about sleeping in clouds,

i dreamt about flying with horses,

i dreamt about eating flowers,

i dreamt about everything you've never dream of dreaming.

but i know they are only dreams,

and only dreams are sweet enough to drown me into the chocolate river.